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Poppy the mosaic squibbit
My youngest child just turned 21. We had a great night out on the town and it was so fun. All my kids were their and many of their friends.
My youngest has a buddy who's girlfriend just moved out of their apartment and is paid up 4 months ahead in her half of the rent. She doesn't want her money back she just wanted to break up and move out from the guy she was living with. My son is moving into the apartment rent free to live with this buddy of his. Then they will get another apartment and split the rent. That's all fine and dandy.
BUT............This is my last child moving out. My baby. I will be all alone after this. I'm kind of scared, kind of sad, kind of nervous, already kind of lonely. I'm not sure I want to be alone. I never dated when my kids were still minors as I didn't want the hassle of trying to maintain a relationship with a man and raise my kids. I also didn't want any other person interfering with the way I chose to raise my kids. But recently I have been ready to begin dating again as I don't want to grow old alone. Last year I did meet a man and we became very close but I don't want to leave the area where I live as my children, grandchild and father is here and he doesn't want to leave his home area, either, for the same reasons. We remain close but It's just never 'going to happen' as a long term,permanent relationship..........though I do love him dearly and he loves me back. We spend hours and hours and hours each week on the phone and I have been to see him once and will be going back again in the very near future. And believe me, I was treated like royalty when I was there. Never had I been so spoiled in all my life. Money, time, distance traveled was no object. It was like a fairy tale dream come true. But, be that as it is........
I am so sad my children will be all gone. Actually, I'm a little terrified and I don't know why. My three children are all in the area, none are out of state or anything. I am just so afraid to be entering this next phase of my life and to be honest I'm entering it kicking,crying and screaming. I'm sure I'll adjust and I'm sure I'll get along fine. It's just going to be so different for me...........
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My youngest has a buddy who's girlfriend just moved out of their apartment and is paid up 4 months ahead in her half of the rent. She doesn't want her money back she just wanted to break up and move out from the guy she was living with. My son is moving into the apartment rent free to live with this buddy of his. Then they will get another apartment and split the rent. That's all fine and dandy.
BUT............This is my last child moving out. My baby. I will be all alone after this. I'm kind of scared, kind of sad, kind of nervous, already kind of lonely. I'm not sure I want to be alone. I never dated when my kids were still minors as I didn't want the hassle of trying to maintain a relationship with a man and raise my kids. I also didn't want any other person interfering with the way I chose to raise my kids. But recently I have been ready to begin dating again as I don't want to grow old alone. Last year I did meet a man and we became very close but I don't want to leave the area where I live as my children, grandchild and father is here and he doesn't want to leave his home area, either, for the same reasons. We remain close but It's just never 'going to happen' as a long term,permanent relationship..........though I do love him dearly and he loves me back. We spend hours and hours and hours each week on the phone and I have been to see him once and will be going back again in the very near future. And believe me, I was treated like royalty when I was there. Never had I been so spoiled in all my life. Money, time, distance traveled was no object. It was like a fairy tale dream come true. But, be that as it is........
I am so sad my children will be all gone. Actually, I'm a little terrified and I don't know why. My three children are all in the area, none are out of state or anything. I am just so afraid to be entering this next phase of my life and to be honest I'm entering it kicking,crying and screaming. I'm sure I'll adjust and I'm sure I'll get along fine. It's just going to be so different for me...........
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