3CsMommy
My babies Rock!
Last night I had a dream that still had me scared when I woke up today. I'm honestly still a little nervous about it now. In the dream, the older child I live with came into my room while I was sleeping (I rent room from a friend who has 2 kids) and destroyed everything he could touch. The furniture was moved and broken, stuff from other rooms was dragged into the bedroom, books and sewing stuff scattered everywhere... all while I was dead asleep right there in the same room.
But the worst part was that he'd targeted the animal cages. My hamster's tank was smashed on one end, broken glass everywhere. She was gone, and no sign of where she'd hidden. The cat was under the bed hissing at any sound or movement. Couldn't tell if she was hurt; she was just a ball of black and orange hunkered down in the far corner. Crash's cage door was open, bedding everywhere, his toys pulled apart and scattered, food and water dumped, and he was cowering in the back shaking and barking at anything that moved.
Then I saw his face: one of his eyes was clouded over and tannish/grey, and he kept pawing at it. (I've seen the child dig his finger into the dog's eye on more than one occasion, though not recently. I'm guessing that's part of where that image came from.) So, immediately, we're off to a vet.
The vet in this dream was a youngish woman with dark hair and did a great job of calming me down while she initially checked Crash over. Then he went into the back to be sedated for an eye exam. When she came back out, she told me that he was permanently blinded in that eye (not so horrible; there are plenty of one eyed chins in the world, assuming he survived the treatment), but that he also had a horrible case of Malo and she recommended an immediate euth b/c his roots were digging through the bone. Then she tore me apart verbally b/c he hadn't been seen by a vet since he was in rescue @ForCHINate Chins in Cleveland (Dr. Z) and that I wasn't fit to own an animal if I was going to neglect his health and let a child terrorize him like that. And after everything else that had happened, including the chewing out that I (in the dream) knew I deserved, I told her to do it. :cry3:
When I woke up, of course I rushed over to the cage... to get the stink eye from the back corner where His Highness was/is sleeping. Maybe it was just guilt b/c he didn't get playtime last night? I know I'm not a bad chin mom; he always has hay, pellets, water, and something(s) to chew on. He's got a wheel. He gets playtime at least 5 nights a week unless work runs *way* over (like last night). He gets checked for hair rings monthly and his weight is stable. I try to check his teeth monthly, but I've never been 100% sure I'm doing it right, and he absolutely *hates* being restrained for that kind of thing, so he fights me pretty hard. The cat is fine, the hamster is fine, the only mess in my bedroom is one I caused paying bills... I just wish I could get the darn thing out of my head! I'm honestly so rattled now I'm tempted to find a way to lock the Ferret Nation once I get it put together this weekend, just to make sure the child I live with can't get at him. Or maybe just so I can trust myself more?
Anyway, I'm hoping typing all this out to the kind of people who would understand why "just a dream" about my pets being tortured is so upsetting will help me put it behind me.
But the worst part was that he'd targeted the animal cages. My hamster's tank was smashed on one end, broken glass everywhere. She was gone, and no sign of where she'd hidden. The cat was under the bed hissing at any sound or movement. Couldn't tell if she was hurt; she was just a ball of black and orange hunkered down in the far corner. Crash's cage door was open, bedding everywhere, his toys pulled apart and scattered, food and water dumped, and he was cowering in the back shaking and barking at anything that moved.
Then I saw his face: one of his eyes was clouded over and tannish/grey, and he kept pawing at it. (I've seen the child dig his finger into the dog's eye on more than one occasion, though not recently. I'm guessing that's part of where that image came from.) So, immediately, we're off to a vet.
The vet in this dream was a youngish woman with dark hair and did a great job of calming me down while she initially checked Crash over. Then he went into the back to be sedated for an eye exam. When she came back out, she told me that he was permanently blinded in that eye (not so horrible; there are plenty of one eyed chins in the world, assuming he survived the treatment), but that he also had a horrible case of Malo and she recommended an immediate euth b/c his roots were digging through the bone. Then she tore me apart verbally b/c he hadn't been seen by a vet since he was in rescue @ForCHINate Chins in Cleveland (Dr. Z) and that I wasn't fit to own an animal if I was going to neglect his health and let a child terrorize him like that. And after everything else that had happened, including the chewing out that I (in the dream) knew I deserved, I told her to do it. :cry3:
When I woke up, of course I rushed over to the cage... to get the stink eye from the back corner where His Highness was/is sleeping. Maybe it was just guilt b/c he didn't get playtime last night? I know I'm not a bad chin mom; he always has hay, pellets, water, and something(s) to chew on. He's got a wheel. He gets playtime at least 5 nights a week unless work runs *way* over (like last night). He gets checked for hair rings monthly and his weight is stable. I try to check his teeth monthly, but I've never been 100% sure I'm doing it right, and he absolutely *hates* being restrained for that kind of thing, so he fights me pretty hard. The cat is fine, the hamster is fine, the only mess in my bedroom is one I caused paying bills... I just wish I could get the darn thing out of my head! I'm honestly so rattled now I'm tempted to find a way to lock the Ferret Nation once I get it put together this weekend, just to make sure the child I live with can't get at him. Or maybe just so I can trust myself more?
Anyway, I'm hoping typing all this out to the kind of people who would understand why "just a dream" about my pets being tortured is so upsetting will help me put it behind me.
