chin_gal
Me? Addicted?
Mods, if this is in the wrong section, feel free to move it. I wasn't sure if this was fit for the memorial section since I'm kind of asking a question, I'm not sure... Sorry if it is.
So, I'm not sure how many of you on here know/remember me from when I was very active on Chins-n-Quills and in the beginnings of this forum, but I have been inactive for quite a while now. I recently came back asking for advice since my chinchilla Charlie was sick (he's better now, btw!), and that just reminded me of how much I don't come here anymore. That.. and me just posting a picture of Marlow in the ebony thread really set me off... not sure why I thought that was a good idea.
It was about 2 years ago now, that I went through something awful with my chins. I had taken a few of my chins to the York show in 2009, and a few days later (still have no idea if the show is related or not to what happened), I found my chinchilla Marlow dead in his cage. I had a necropsy done, and it was found that he had intussusception. They said it could have been caused by a parasite, so they wanted to do a fecal on my other chins. Well, when the results came back two days later, it turned out they did have giardia, so we were about to start treatment. As I was getting the weights of the chins for the dosages, I then found my oldest chinchilla Schroeder dragging his back legs. We rushed him to the vet, and they said there wasn't much they could do in his condition and his age, so they recommended that I put him down. So that night, I walked out of there with my oldest chinchilla in a box, along with the meds for the rest of the chins. I took him a few days later to get cremated.
So, I start giving everyone their medications. They actually seemed to be doing better. Well, after a few days had passed, I then found my darling chinchilla Indigo dead in his cage. 3 chins gone in about 4-5 days. I was heartbroken.
So, we now figure it's time to go to another vet, and he agreed to see all of my remaining chins. Well, he put them on panacur, and after treatment, they finally got better. But, it was a very long time before I could wake up in the morning and not be afraid to look into their cages, afraid I would find one of them dead. And still until this day, I just can't bring myself back to this forum.
I'm crying right now as I'm typing this, it hurts so much...My chinchillas are being very well cared for, but I am so much more distant with them now. I still love them with all of my heart, and I still give them scritches and will talk to them, and love nothing more than giving them new things to chew and munch on... but still, something's not the same. Why can't I seem to heal? It's almost been two years... and all I find myself doing is more or less distancing myself from the chinchilla world as much as possible. And that is something I used to love almost more than anything. I'm not quite sure why I made this thread, just trying to figure out why I can't move on... What have others done that have gone through so many losses in such a short bit of time? Will this ever pass?
RIP my sweet babies. :tissue:
Marlow:
Indigo:
Schroeder:
So, I'm not sure how many of you on here know/remember me from when I was very active on Chins-n-Quills and in the beginnings of this forum, but I have been inactive for quite a while now. I recently came back asking for advice since my chinchilla Charlie was sick (he's better now, btw!), and that just reminded me of how much I don't come here anymore. That.. and me just posting a picture of Marlow in the ebony thread really set me off... not sure why I thought that was a good idea.
It was about 2 years ago now, that I went through something awful with my chins. I had taken a few of my chins to the York show in 2009, and a few days later (still have no idea if the show is related or not to what happened), I found my chinchilla Marlow dead in his cage. I had a necropsy done, and it was found that he had intussusception. They said it could have been caused by a parasite, so they wanted to do a fecal on my other chins. Well, when the results came back two days later, it turned out they did have giardia, so we were about to start treatment. As I was getting the weights of the chins for the dosages, I then found my oldest chinchilla Schroeder dragging his back legs. We rushed him to the vet, and they said there wasn't much they could do in his condition and his age, so they recommended that I put him down. So that night, I walked out of there with my oldest chinchilla in a box, along with the meds for the rest of the chins. I took him a few days later to get cremated.
So, I start giving everyone their medications. They actually seemed to be doing better. Well, after a few days had passed, I then found my darling chinchilla Indigo dead in his cage. 3 chins gone in about 4-5 days. I was heartbroken.
So, we now figure it's time to go to another vet, and he agreed to see all of my remaining chins. Well, he put them on panacur, and after treatment, they finally got better. But, it was a very long time before I could wake up in the morning and not be afraid to look into their cages, afraid I would find one of them dead. And still until this day, I just can't bring myself back to this forum.
I'm crying right now as I'm typing this, it hurts so much...My chinchillas are being very well cared for, but I am so much more distant with them now. I still love them with all of my heart, and I still give them scritches and will talk to them, and love nothing more than giving them new things to chew and munch on... but still, something's not the same. Why can't I seem to heal? It's almost been two years... and all I find myself doing is more or less distancing myself from the chinchilla world as much as possible. And that is something I used to love almost more than anything. I'm not quite sure why I made this thread, just trying to figure out why I can't move on... What have others done that have gone through so many losses in such a short bit of time? Will this ever pass?
RIP my sweet babies. :tissue:
Marlow:
Indigo:
Schroeder: