ErinsChins
Well-known member
Thanks Melissa!
I'll be blunt. Had a curves membership for 6 months. I would go do their routine about 4 times a week. Lost about 15 lbs(wanted more) but just couldn't stand the atmosphere and everything there.
I do eat like a kid, but the whole thing is depressing. I'll open up with you guys. When I was 13 I had to go to a psychiatric hospital. I had a friend in school whom I got in a fight with and said friend decided to tell the counselor that I was going to commit suicide (not true). The counselor was required to call my parents blah blah blah im in a hospital now. Well, there was a veryyy strict diet at said hospital, and an exercise program.
Let me back up for a minute. Before going to the hospital I am a healthy 13 year old. Health wise, not necessarily weight wise. 175, 5' 4". But most of it was muscle, I don't remember how, but my parents were concerned and had it checked lol. I played travel soccer and travel softball from 5-14 and that took up almost all of my time. Anyway, I was pretty healthy and active. Could run a mile.
So, I get to this hospital and by the end of day ONE they've put me on some meds. Okay, fine, whatever. My weight slowly went up during the course of those meds. Even when I kept the diet, which was like..a salad and water, literally. I topped out at 230. FREAKING 230. At that point, maybe I DID need to be in a mental hospital, because I was freakin out.
Sooooo 4 years later and I can't really lose the weight and keep it off, no matter what I do. I've had gym memberships, the works. Not on the meds, haven't been for at least 2 years..
It's all really depressing and i'm not sure what to do. Here's how I feel (I do have determination, but surely you can understand)...I can eat salads and stuff that I don't really like..and deprive myself of yummmyyy sodas and not lose weight...OR I can eat whatever the heck I want and not gain or lose weight..I mean..you know? It's not like this is something new..i've tried. I've gone to doctor's, you name it. My weight does not go up or down. I'm not even going to lie, there's been times when it has upset me so much that I probably ate a whole thing of oreo's lmao (and I dont even like oreos)
I don't know, I just feel like I can't win. I've been keeping up my routine, it's fine but I don't feel unhealthy, I just want to look better (although, maybe TMI but i'll miss my boobs if I ever do lose the weight!)
Sorry for the TL;DR. Thanks again everyone.
I'll be blunt. Had a curves membership for 6 months. I would go do their routine about 4 times a week. Lost about 15 lbs(wanted more) but just couldn't stand the atmosphere and everything there.
I do eat like a kid, but the whole thing is depressing. I'll open up with you guys. When I was 13 I had to go to a psychiatric hospital. I had a friend in school whom I got in a fight with and said friend decided to tell the counselor that I was going to commit suicide (not true). The counselor was required to call my parents blah blah blah im in a hospital now. Well, there was a veryyy strict diet at said hospital, and an exercise program.
Let me back up for a minute. Before going to the hospital I am a healthy 13 year old. Health wise, not necessarily weight wise. 175, 5' 4". But most of it was muscle, I don't remember how, but my parents were concerned and had it checked lol. I played travel soccer and travel softball from 5-14 and that took up almost all of my time. Anyway, I was pretty healthy and active. Could run a mile.
So, I get to this hospital and by the end of day ONE they've put me on some meds. Okay, fine, whatever. My weight slowly went up during the course of those meds. Even when I kept the diet, which was like..a salad and water, literally. I topped out at 230. FREAKING 230. At that point, maybe I DID need to be in a mental hospital, because I was freakin out.
Sooooo 4 years later and I can't really lose the weight and keep it off, no matter what I do. I've had gym memberships, the works. Not on the meds, haven't been for at least 2 years..
It's all really depressing and i'm not sure what to do. Here's how I feel (I do have determination, but surely you can understand)...I can eat salads and stuff that I don't really like..and deprive myself of yummmyyy sodas and not lose weight...OR I can eat whatever the heck I want and not gain or lose weight..I mean..you know? It's not like this is something new..i've tried. I've gone to doctor's, you name it. My weight does not go up or down. I'm not even going to lie, there's been times when it has upset me so much that I probably ate a whole thing of oreo's lmao (and I dont even like oreos)
I don't know, I just feel like I can't win. I've been keeping up my routine, it's fine but I don't feel unhealthy, I just want to look better (although, maybe TMI but i'll miss my boobs if I ever do lose the weight!)
Sorry for the TL;DR. Thanks again everyone.